MewPopotan

slip into the world of avoidance; what method of distraction will you use today? since when did this straight-A seamtress fall into the world of desperation and drug abuse? struggling to fit in, but no one accepts her applications- strange in every way, cyncical to the core, flawed and thawed cold, nutrient deprived, coffee & nicotine & adderall to replace the deficient; barely alive, not yet dead. what does the future hold for someone who doesn't wish to see it? what amount of love or desire can give someone the will to live? she's sick of the monotony, tired of the same old shit stuck in an unkind world searching but failing to find a

Once upon a time I knew a girl She was my greatest support Right up until the day she started hating me And that's okay, I hated myself too. Everyday I tortured myself Made myself sick. Mentally, physically, emotionally I tore myself apart, literally She hated it. In the begining she tried to save me But I think she figrued it out Far before anyone else did. Trying to save me was like Trying to make lead float Or empty the ocean I was hopeless I was doomed. She saw that and got out, fast. I'll never blame her for that. I was self destructing and scary I was jumping from roofs And swallowing handfuls of pills I was dangerous and heart

I'll say I'm okay. And I'll smile. I'll wipe my tears And suck it up. I'll replace my mask, All for you, all of you. This is what you want, right? Or have the words come out wrong again? I'll laugh at my Little break down. But be honest, Do you really want this? I'll slip back into pretending All for you people. I'm breaking inside You all delivered the final blow Things I can't say, I can''t do, Get tangled as I Try my hardest To keep you happy. My heart can't take this. It's like you can't read the signs. They scream "Fragile!" but you Treat me as if I'm still strong I'm broken! Figure it out! "I'll be okay.

I have a life threatening illness Depression. Severe and Major It's threatened my life on more than A few occasions Dark nights it lingers over my shoulder Whispering thoughts into my head One tragic accident away from death One slip, one night I feel too... Sad Angry Lost Hurt Abandoned Alone One cut too deep, One slice too thick, One pill too many, One jump too far, One step off a curb, One shot in the dark, One word too many hanging from your lips One comment too far, One life lost, One thin piece of rope, One chair kicked, One river too deep, One knife too sharp, One pool of blood too large, One bad day, One teenag